choices

it's no fun when you dont have a choice.
neither is it fun when you DO have a choice, and many at that.

kinda sucks when everything is hanging onto each other in a freakingly horrifyingly tangled mess. gives you the feeling that when one drops, the rest will come crashing down as well.

it's like you're sitting in a kopitiam and drinking coffee and waiting for the world to go by while there's this fan spinning over your head which is in serious danger of crashing down SPLAT! on your head.


i think you get why it's not a very nice feeling.



submitted my nus app already. now i need to get the paperwork done and pay.
i dunno what to do for ntu. not every sure why i'm applying anyway. probably because i feel insecure just applying to nus.
gaaah. rubbish.


emo-ed yest. though somebody tried to cheer me up.
very tired of being strong for everyone - my dad, my mom, my bro and now even my aunt.
and its scary when everything is threatening to just crumble. and the thing is i'm just waiting for the bricks to fall, while everyone is expecting me to keep the ceiling up.
it's horrifying. not to mention overwhelming.


how do you support the ceiling when the foundation is gone?