big decisions

as i just twittered - i made a big decision that set my life path for the next 6 years or so.

the past few weeks hasn't been fun at all - was running around places attending scholarship interviews all over the freaking place.

finally there's some result - so to speak.
was offered 3 scholarships, DSTA, LTA and IDA

wasn't too keen on DSTA, so it was mainly a fight between LTA and IDA.

trust me. choosing between a company where u know the work is suitable for your personality and a company where u see yourself there isn't the easiest decision.

damn. sometimes i just want to be given no choice. but on the other hand i think i will still complain. hahaha

so IDA it is. after a long afternoon of stoning and gossiping with Ms Lim. lol

quotes

stole this off weiling's blog.
it says alot. too much.

i could have just kept my mouth shut. i mean, what you dont know won't kill you right?
but it isn't right that i kept it shut as a secret.
neither do i want the burden of a secret, especially with you.

i dont blame you for thinking that way. really.
i've talked about mindsets a long time ago on this blog, and it's the same case again.
the pple arnd you are like that. what stops you from thinking that i wont be that?

you dont trust me. i know that.
whatever i say will not change that. or remove your doubts and fears.

and even though u keep saying that its my choice, i know that you're not comfortable with it.
is it so hard to say that out?

i dont feel good about this.
and there is a deja vu-y feeling that there will be a backlash.

i dont like this feeling at all.

we have been in and out of it.
i dont know whetherit has made us stronger, or more tired ot this r/s
i hope that there's really something there. and i hope that it lasts.

update to the previous update

and i just rmbed.

tangs is gonna have a fair at NYP.

and guess what are some of the brands they are featuring?

triumph and sloggi.

right. like who would buy lingerie in a fair setting in the poly?

seriously.

annoyed

it's one of the days where i feel like killing somebody. period.

just restless and annoyed i guess. argh.

today was spent trying to get that PCB board working. which obviously didnt work. and i still dont know what's wrong. argh.

probably i should go poke some enemies on my ds.

either that or go for retail therapy.

which btw, is burning a huge hole in my pocket.

i randomly bought a $75 bag.

and randomly went into a nail salon after my IDA interview

and randomly went to do my brows after my MS interview.

and randomly bought a new pink and white mouse. and i was so tempted to buy the MS presenter mouse. which isn't cheap. and that's how random i got.

zzz. i should really stop being random. argh

falling sick

my head is pounding

my nose is blocked

my ears are ringing

and my eyes are tearing


great. and i still need to go school tmr to talk to corporate comms.

anyway.. i've got an offer from a company! let's see if more comes in..

hmm..



and my brother can seriously go knock the wall.

he left remnants of himself (so-to-speak) on my bed. and for some reason ants like it. and when i got home last night there was one patch of ants on my bed. ewww. had to change the damn sheet in the middle of the night. gross


sigh.. one more long week ahead. damn i'm like burning all my weekends.
also dunno why i chiong until like that. sigh

ramblings

1. bored.
2. it's the end of the week.
3. time is flying and yet moving so slowly at the same time.
4. i feel cranky.
5. "it" is late. which is seriously bothering me even though i suspect stress which kind of makes me more stressed.
6. i miss casual clothing- have been in formal for 4 days straight.
7. need to study memory mapping. but no mood.
8. a town called eureka is very very very very very nice. finished watching both seasons. now i'm bored.
9. i want the DS version of guitar hero.
10. i gossip too much.
11. i miss working at esplanade.
12. i'm bored.
13. i'm hungry.
14. i havent had alcohol for SOO long.
15. i dont like when pple pressurise me to make decisions
16. i dont like when pple hint me
17. the chicken rice today @ south canteen wasn't the best.
18. i wanna eat thai chilli fish rice @ my work place
19. and ayam penyet at Marina square
20. i miss my bed
21. my pink octopus is cute
22. my brother is dumb and annoying
23. oh, and he just got 2 injections in school. ahahhaha
24. i'm thirsty
25. and bored. i mentioned that right?

:(

Stuff's that been happening

that's the ferrari i bought by the way. haha. it's now with ronnie. he's going crazy over it.

ANYWAY,

been real busy lately

stuffs that has been going on:

1. MSP recruitment
   


2. Scholarship stuffs



3. Worldskills Training



4. Ubin Cycling
   

MSP Recruitments

were okay. I mean, they could have been better, in terms of organisation, logistics and planning. And of course, the people who went to the interview itself. Quite funny really. And of course, i did stupid things like carrying suse the lizard all over L22, much to the amusement of all the potential candidates. I mean, random is good right? haha. But i was really really tired that day, to the extent that me and luppy spent 5 mins listening to the Macdonalds telecom without realising we have to press 1 to get to the delivery line. in fact, so tired that we didn't even get to play guitar hero! which is such a rarity nowadays.

Now that results are out, (we spent over an hour discussing - though there was much digression) i'm pretty much a happy girl. All the pple that i want in are in! like yay :) I still ahve one slot left though - hope that desmond will take the position. it would be great if he could!

luckily my pple's mini screw-ups werent that bad. whew

Scholarships

so i had the opportunity to go on site visits to some pretty interesting places. Not sure whether it's NDA though so i shall not mention names (and partly because i dont want my blog to appear on search hits) but just look at the picture and u'd pretty much have a rough idea of where i was.
Friday was a crazy day for me man.

Morning i had a assessment at D* and thereafter i rushed down to school to sort out some stuffs for lay sze. Then i went to above mentioned place.

D* assessment was insanely interesting. it was a situational test and i've never replied to so many emails in 2-3 hours in my freaking life. And each email was practically an essay. then they pull you out in the middle of nowhere to roleplay with this random guy who's supposed to be your colleague and is very difficult to handle. for some reason i think i didn't really do that well for that. There's also this presentation that you ahve 10 mins to prepare for, think THAT was okay (thank god for the training MSP has provided me. seriously)

the afternoon was supposed to be a psychometric test for another organisation, but luckily, because i took it before, i dont have to take it again. whew. thinking back, that was another insane test man. joined them later in the afternoon for a site visit. That was quite interesting, though for some reason, the parents who tagged along were asking all the questions (like seriously). It was quite an eye opener

this morning was at harborfront for another site visit with another company. visited the showflats near the area. Most memorable was the one that cost 10mil. It was really beautiful, and sea view is like woah! The master bedroom's toilet is big enough to slot a little bed in. really. went to the shipyards and rigs

that's a jack up

and a FF something. hahaa

very interesting, and challenging too. I mean, its a place i'd fall in love with, but for some reason, i'm having 2nd thoughts about whether i want to work in a shipyard kind of environment. But i guess it's always good to expose myself. we'll see.

hopefully i'm shortlisted for K and once more for D*. still waiting for PSC to call me though.

Worldskills Training

status: killing brain cells. enough said

Ubin Cycling

was supposed to go team bonding with MS @ ubin. response wasnt good however, by the time that week arrived, there were just 6 of us. on the day itself, luppy and alvin both couldn't wake up, so it was me chunsiong yizhe and weijie left. chunsiong brought a friend though, so it was 5 of us.

btw, we made a mistake of getting those bicycles designed for females. It is totally not suitable for off track cycling. Though the good part was that it had a basket for us to dump stuff and for chunsiong to dump his water in.

we cycled to the quarry, then to the beach, had coconut juice. i spent like 15 mins catching little crabs at the soft coral by the beach. they are sooooo cute. hahaha

some pictures taken. They were mostly random shots. hahaa