i'm really tired of this.
it's getting nowhere.
and it wouldn't be that bad if it wasn't that i feel that it's just me feeling this way.
or maybe u just dont wanna say.
but i'm confused and my mind's in a whirl.
and it's obvious u want an answer out of me,
but i have none.

maybe it's better if there's a break,
coz everytime u talk to me, rationality goes out of the window.
and i know nothing is or will be solved.
kind of sucks when i dont even have the basic faith that everything will be okay.

trying to bury myself with the mundane things happening around me..
courses, coding, food, events
running away i suppose, at the back of my head.
it's what i do best, and it's one of the few things i know.

exhausted now - from courses, parents, cluttered mind and running away..
and you.
you, and all the possibilities of something and potential points of failure and everything else associated with it, are the most exhausting of all.