procrastinating

i am procrastinating to the max.

i've got a pile of things to clear and i haven done.

i got one qn more for my physics assignment and i am in no mood to do it.

i got a stack of readings to do but i kind of want my bed more.

and dont mention TUTORIALS to me.

and of course. there's always WSS at the back of my mind. sighhhh.



u know whats the worst part?
i'm not used to my bed.
and because i'm trying to get used to this bed, i'm not used to my home bed.
woke up cursing and swearing on sunday morning. damnit.
i need a full body massage. sigh


had "steamboat" with xiuling and a couple other random cluster mates just now.
i made salmon. yum. haha

anyway the girl staying next to me is a doctor. like wow..

the few things i'm extremely annoyed with

 

1. myself for screwing up my timetable
2. nyp for not crediting my pay
3. my eyes for wanting to droop
4. labs for not being at decent timings. zzz
5. special awards committee for not publishing their name/contact/whatever on the RSVP ><
6. the radio for playing that annoying song
7. ida for not crediting my allowance. zzz
8. my BOTH bank accnts being broke.

i'm not in the best of all moods.

on the bright side though, i've got 2 brownies for breakfast :D

 

 

23 months? ... :)

5 things i have learnt so far

1. check your email everyday. you never know what's going to be in it.
2. the e-learning portal is better than nyp's one. and you need to be super reliant on it because EVERYTHING from lecture notes to contacts to assignments to forums are all on it. so not used to that
3. brush up on reading skills. i've got about 50+ pages of readings so far. and it's barely day 3
4. there are a million exchange students in my residence. out of which the guys tend to be pretty hot and like to walk around topless. time to camp downstairs :)
5. strawberry mango juice from fass canteen is just about the nicest thing on earth. hmm.. at least, until i try strawberry soursop later when i pass by the canteen that is. wait for updates!

Day 3 and counting. havent made any friends in my LT yet. just so out of place coz everyone else seems to know each other and tend to cluster together and i generally like to sit in front which kinda makes it worst coz everyone else sits at the back. oh well

the lecturers so far are pretty good i must say - have attended 4 out of 5 modules so far. the next new one is tmr - kinda looking forward

procrastinating.

okay. after a million years of getting both my very slow notebook and my equally slow desktop to work, i finally processed the cambodia pictures.

they are now in a very nice 1.83Gb big .wmv file and is a slideshow of 28 mins.
so if you have 30 mins of spare time and wanna see some pictures of rocks and food. let me know. lol.


things been pretty mild lately.
i'm aimlessly going to work everyday. and for some reason i CANNOT seem to wake up and i end up cabbing almost everyday. im trying to make some stupid lcd work. but evidently i'm supposed to use SPI so that i can program another microcontroller with a microprocessor such that the microcontroller can control the lcd. which, apparently is not very easy to do. oh well. i think i shall shelve that and do PWM instead. zzzs

school's starting soon, which basically means i have a million things to take care of that i have yet to. like getting finance to send IDA the invoice, and checking in into PGP and applying for my ez link card. i finally did clearance in all my jobs though, so pending my last day at NYP, i will be officially unemployed. which sucks. and it doesn't help that the lazy streak in me is forever around nowadays.

highlight of the week was yest - where we went to NYNY to eat to celebrate pam's birthday. oh btw the seafood platter was really. really. really good. seriously. the calamaris are fantastic, prawns are very fresh. fish was not soggy and the cold crab was seriously good. and i forgot to mention. there was smoked salmon in it! but even though they said it was for two, i think 3 can share it comfortably. or maybe two guys with really big appetites. oh and if you get a cake there, the staff can even go to your table to sing happy birthday! which is definitely a plus if you need to embarass somebody. lol. it was really fun. then we spent the rest of the night reminiscing about our old class. :D

calvyn told me something really interesting and funny. if you've really really dark skin. like almost black kinda dark. and you have dry hair. and you wear a black cap + black shirt + black pants +black shoes, some door sensors dont work! apparently its tried and tested by one of his really really dark friends. and he was literally dancing in front of the door and it didn't open. and then all he did was - flip palm up- and the door opened! lol. its so wrong la. the door sensor is color-ist.

kinda at this point in time in life where i'm not sure what is important anymore. i mean, i KNOW what is important. like studies and whatever. but im kinda questioning it.
dont know why. haiz.

whining

its 1 am.

i'm hungry.

i'm sleepy.

i'm looking at two computer screens at once coz i got to sort out all my photos.

and i got work tomorrow.

and 500 pictures from my weekend trip to angkor, cambodia to sort through.

and i dunno why i'm wasting time blogging.

how smart of me.


anyway, silverlight rocks :)

the problem with paradoxes

 

i'm back into the whole paradox theory.. stuff that is so simple and yet so complicated, explains everything and yet nothing.. like einstein's theory of relativity where a moving clock is slower that a stationary one when observed from a stationary point.

it's simply put, perception and yet its so against our conventional way of thinking..

argh. i'm killing braincells again. and its so stitch's fault.

 

sigh.

 

school's boring as usual. though i'm getting paid to be bored so that kind of is the silver lining in the thing.

so tired. i'm annoyed with my program again. going to camp in front of the computer tomorrow to solve the damn problem where i clear PORTA and its doesn't freaking clear. argh.

oh and did i tell you that i'm stuck with a PC that has NO internet and a roller ball mouse????

so tempted to smash it.. argh

 

tomorrow is supposed to be medical checkup day for NUS(like the 3rd checkup i'm having this year. i feel like i have some chronic disease or something) but due to some unforeseen circumstances of a certain time of the month i cant go. zzz. going to call them tomorrow.

 

it's surprising how things have a habit of turning out the way you didn't expect them to. its either that or i never learn from experience about guy friends.

 

he said he doesn't understand me. and its probably easier not to try to. he said that i stand out from the crowd - with the "what can you do to me" attitude i have. he said he doesn't know why he just appears whenever i call. and he said he doesn't know why he doesn't have to be someone else when he's with me.

what does that say?

too much and too little.

i think i need to keep my distance. but i always make the same mistake of not doing that.

a few important things to update/try

 

1. figure out my new HP ipaq :) thanks to daddy
   
2. eat the jade snow whatever marketing gimmick name mc flurry thing.. i tried it once.. nice - if you like matcha powder (you know the green tea powder some of the jap restaurants use? not the lame tea bag)
   
3. harrass Rex for masala tea from nepal :) cousins are so useful lol
   
4. study :(

randoming again

 

found this while facebooking :)

 

ITE trip today. why am i so high profile??

zzz

 

5 days and counting. i'm so going to die. haiz

the day is coming

graduation - check.

annoying graduation speech - check.

scholarship - check.

scholarship info sending - check.

scholarship medical check up - pending

Salary - pending

resignation from SCH and Esplanade - pending

NUS/NTU application acceptance - check

Accommodation application - check

 

well, most of my things are done.

kind of just waiting for the day to come.

it's on June 18th. Not sure whether i'm looking forward to it.

kind of like everyone's expectations are on me just because of what i am. oh well. this is one of the bad thing about being a high-flyer.

 

really in need of a break. Jo is going bangkok next week. I'm so jealous - ha. what i would give to spend one week just shopping till i run out of money in bangkok. and the thai massages.
but then again.. hmm. at this rate i'm going i think i might just settle for a weekend at some nice hotel slacking my whole day through.

but well, its not something i can afford to do now. the qualifying round is soon so theoretically i'm supposed to build up my "fire" to it and not take a long break in the middle of nowhere.

 

IDA says i cant work part-time. which makes sense. but is really really sucky. i'd love to hang around in esplanade. wanna feel the vibe there. its just so refreshing. but oh well.. i mean, i could just go ahead, and nobody would know the better.. but well, i guess its always better to play safe.. skali somebody throw a dagger at my back.

 

grad was okay. i mean, its fun and vibe-y and all that. but i attended 2 sessions back to back so the only thing i felt was that i was damn freaking exhausted. doesnt help that the grad gown was so heavy, and the shoulder pads were so BIG. then there were all the hand shakings and photos and frozen smiles. and the messed up speech... okay.. it didn't go THAT badly but i screwed up a word just as i was ending my speech. trust silly me to do that. then my dumb little bro was "snatching" satay with the principal. so smart of him.

then that's me in the grad book.. i look. weird. hahaha.

bro took alot of messed up photos at grad. everything was blur. was so hilarious. spent the whole day laughing at him. haha okay i'm so mean.

 

was really busy recently.. there was a week-long wake and so i was there every night i think about 2 weeks ago. (sorry time is like of no consequence recently. everything just passes so fast.) Then there's work at nyp, which is so mentally draining, and work at SCH, where your karma just gets really low they just like to scream right in your face about whatever they are unhappy about. had one incident the other day during the young children's concert. quite funny when i think back, coz there are like 9 staff attending to this patron. like WHOA. haha.

got really random and started taking photos of random stuff

this is my current msn pic. hahaa

my little nephew.

snack corner @ lab. its restocked every week :)

the nails i did for graduation. or rather the graduation gave me a perfect reason to do my nails. haha

 

yizhe being random @ board room yest. hahaa

TO DO:

1. sneeze
2. plan MIXoc
3. actually pay attention to the silverlight talk going on now.
4. study chapt 7 on opamp filters (maybe do a nice app on it to consolidate. i need to IT!)
5. zzzz
6. caffien-ate myself
7. prepare for grad speech. i cant pronounce th-s for nuts.
8. shop/do something to destress
9. find $$$
10. drink. surprisingly i havent touched alcohol for slightly more than a month or so
11. try to make my hair less of a mess now that its slightly curly
12. find my bed and hug it.
13. think of something to do with the pink octopus coz its ending up on the floor far too often. and that basically means its taking up too much space on my bed.
14. find a letterbox to throw a overdue letter in. IDA is so going to kill me
15. play guitar hero :D

pics from chalet

suhui


luppy


more of suhui


joseph


Wilson (whom i'll be joining at NUS)


Desmond


Jeremy



Cabbage captain's ball

from yizhe :)

chalet

back from chalet - MS retreat

created a huge scandal about myself. hahaha. and involved 2 innocent guys, namely luppy and joseph. lol damn wrong.


anyway i watched iron man TWICE.
2 days in a row to be exact.

once was with stitch - who made me wait for him for 2 freaking hours. AND made me watch the show at the very first row of the theatre.
second time was in the middle of the night with joseph, shahfiq, desmond and jeremy.

it has a very good plot. story was told very fluently - though the very last ending could have been a little better (kinda corny the way it ended)
but still... it's reallly really good. one of the best plots i have seen so far.

had a good talk last night with jo, cs, luppy and alvin about the next meeting.
think it would be really fun :P hopefully things start going up again

maybe this isn't working out.

big decisions

as i just twittered - i made a big decision that set my life path for the next 6 years or so.

the past few weeks hasn't been fun at all - was running around places attending scholarship interviews all over the freaking place.

finally there's some result - so to speak.
was offered 3 scholarships, DSTA, LTA and IDA

wasn't too keen on DSTA, so it was mainly a fight between LTA and IDA.

trust me. choosing between a company where u know the work is suitable for your personality and a company where u see yourself there isn't the easiest decision.

damn. sometimes i just want to be given no choice. but on the other hand i think i will still complain. hahaha

so IDA it is. after a long afternoon of stoning and gossiping with Ms Lim. lol

quotes

stole this off weiling's blog.
it says alot. too much.

i could have just kept my mouth shut. i mean, what you dont know won't kill you right?
but it isn't right that i kept it shut as a secret.
neither do i want the burden of a secret, especially with you.

i dont blame you for thinking that way. really.
i've talked about mindsets a long time ago on this blog, and it's the same case again.
the pple arnd you are like that. what stops you from thinking that i wont be that?

you dont trust me. i know that.
whatever i say will not change that. or remove your doubts and fears.

and even though u keep saying that its my choice, i know that you're not comfortable with it.
is it so hard to say that out?

i dont feel good about this.
and there is a deja vu-y feeling that there will be a backlash.

i dont like this feeling at all.

we have been in and out of it.
i dont know whetherit has made us stronger, or more tired ot this r/s
i hope that there's really something there. and i hope that it lasts.

update to the previous update

and i just rmbed.

tangs is gonna have a fair at NYP.

and guess what are some of the brands they are featuring?

triumph and sloggi.

right. like who would buy lingerie in a fair setting in the poly?

seriously.

annoyed

it's one of the days where i feel like killing somebody. period.

just restless and annoyed i guess. argh.

today was spent trying to get that PCB board working. which obviously didnt work. and i still dont know what's wrong. argh.

probably i should go poke some enemies on my ds.

either that or go for retail therapy.

which btw, is burning a huge hole in my pocket.

i randomly bought a $75 bag.

and randomly went into a nail salon after my IDA interview

and randomly went to do my brows after my MS interview.

and randomly bought a new pink and white mouse. and i was so tempted to buy the MS presenter mouse. which isn't cheap. and that's how random i got.

zzz. i should really stop being random. argh

falling sick

my head is pounding

my nose is blocked

my ears are ringing

and my eyes are tearing


great. and i still need to go school tmr to talk to corporate comms.

anyway.. i've got an offer from a company! let's see if more comes in..

hmm..



and my brother can seriously go knock the wall.

he left remnants of himself (so-to-speak) on my bed. and for some reason ants like it. and when i got home last night there was one patch of ants on my bed. ewww. had to change the damn sheet in the middle of the night. gross


sigh.. one more long week ahead. damn i'm like burning all my weekends.
also dunno why i chiong until like that. sigh

ramblings

1. bored.
2. it's the end of the week.
3. time is flying and yet moving so slowly at the same time.
4. i feel cranky.
5. "it" is late. which is seriously bothering me even though i suspect stress which kind of makes me more stressed.
6. i miss casual clothing- have been in formal for 4 days straight.
7. need to study memory mapping. but no mood.
8. a town called eureka is very very very very very nice. finished watching both seasons. now i'm bored.
9. i want the DS version of guitar hero.
10. i gossip too much.
11. i miss working at esplanade.
12. i'm bored.
13. i'm hungry.
14. i havent had alcohol for SOO long.
15. i dont like when pple pressurise me to make decisions
16. i dont like when pple hint me
17. the chicken rice today @ south canteen wasn't the best.
18. i wanna eat thai chilli fish rice @ my work place
19. and ayam penyet at Marina square
20. i miss my bed
21. my pink octopus is cute
22. my brother is dumb and annoying
23. oh, and he just got 2 injections in school. ahahhaha
24. i'm thirsty
25. and bored. i mentioned that right?

:(

Stuff's that been happening

that's the ferrari i bought by the way. haha. it's now with ronnie. he's going crazy over it.

ANYWAY,

been real busy lately

stuffs that has been going on:

1. MSP recruitment
   


2. Scholarship stuffs



3. Worldskills Training



4. Ubin Cycling
   

MSP Recruitments

were okay. I mean, they could have been better, in terms of organisation, logistics and planning. And of course, the people who went to the interview itself. Quite funny really. And of course, i did stupid things like carrying suse the lizard all over L22, much to the amusement of all the potential candidates. I mean, random is good right? haha. But i was really really tired that day, to the extent that me and luppy spent 5 mins listening to the Macdonalds telecom without realising we have to press 1 to get to the delivery line. in fact, so tired that we didn't even get to play guitar hero! which is such a rarity nowadays.

Now that results are out, (we spent over an hour discussing - though there was much digression) i'm pretty much a happy girl. All the pple that i want in are in! like yay :) I still ahve one slot left though - hope that desmond will take the position. it would be great if he could!

luckily my pple's mini screw-ups werent that bad. whew

Scholarships

so i had the opportunity to go on site visits to some pretty interesting places. Not sure whether it's NDA though so i shall not mention names (and partly because i dont want my blog to appear on search hits) but just look at the picture and u'd pretty much have a rough idea of where i was.
Friday was a crazy day for me man.

Morning i had a assessment at D* and thereafter i rushed down to school to sort out some stuffs for lay sze. Then i went to above mentioned place.

D* assessment was insanely interesting. it was a situational test and i've never replied to so many emails in 2-3 hours in my freaking life. And each email was practically an essay. then they pull you out in the middle of nowhere to roleplay with this random guy who's supposed to be your colleague and is very difficult to handle. for some reason i think i didn't really do that well for that. There's also this presentation that you ahve 10 mins to prepare for, think THAT was okay (thank god for the training MSP has provided me. seriously)

the afternoon was supposed to be a psychometric test for another organisation, but luckily, because i took it before, i dont have to take it again. whew. thinking back, that was another insane test man. joined them later in the afternoon for a site visit. That was quite interesting, though for some reason, the parents who tagged along were asking all the questions (like seriously). It was quite an eye opener

this morning was at harborfront for another site visit with another company. visited the showflats near the area. Most memorable was the one that cost 10mil. It was really beautiful, and sea view is like woah! The master bedroom's toilet is big enough to slot a little bed in. really. went to the shipyards and rigs

that's a jack up

and a FF something. hahaa

very interesting, and challenging too. I mean, its a place i'd fall in love with, but for some reason, i'm having 2nd thoughts about whether i want to work in a shipyard kind of environment. But i guess it's always good to expose myself. we'll see.

hopefully i'm shortlisted for K and once more for D*. still waiting for PSC to call me though.

Worldskills Training

status: killing brain cells. enough said

Ubin Cycling

was supposed to go team bonding with MS @ ubin. response wasnt good however, by the time that week arrived, there were just 6 of us. on the day itself, luppy and alvin both couldn't wake up, so it was me chunsiong yizhe and weijie left. chunsiong brought a friend though, so it was 5 of us.

btw, we made a mistake of getting those bicycles designed for females. It is totally not suitable for off track cycling. Though the good part was that it had a basket for us to dump stuff and for chunsiong to dump his water in.

we cycled to the quarry, then to the beach, had coconut juice. i spent like 15 mins catching little crabs at the soft coral by the beach. they are sooooo cute. hahaha

some pictures taken. They were mostly random shots. hahaa