sony ericsson centre replaced my motherboard again.
hopefully it works well.

spent the whole day at MIC.
everyone was in a bad mood today, what with the whole saga in the morning where we're not being able to go into office, to the short meeting that didn't seem to achieve much, to the filming which i shall not comment too much..
things really dont seem to be going too well recently.

and now i'm not really in a good mood too.


listening to tryad now.
it's a free download album - industrial pop
good night music when you dont feel like sleeping



my mind is in a whirl and i dont know why. my body has been sending me signals that something's really wrong too, what with the backache and now the heavy breathing. i keep dreaming about running, from something. am i stressed? i think i am, though not sure what about. how do you treat something when you dont know the root of the problem?

thoughts

facebook is seriously addictive.
enough said.

anyways, i finished my bluetooth module!!
yay :) sends whatever rubbish properly now and at the correct timing.
shall switch off till next week when mr chua and mdm tan shall start training.

i see nic disappearing for school meetings very often lately.. oh well.

found myself removed off a blog link.
seriously i'm not surprised, considering it's like a chain reaction from whatever first triggered it. which, till this point of time, i'm not sure what i did. coz for the most part, it seems to be a matter of difference in perception. and i'm not given a chance to explain or say anything. all i'm doing is watching you systematically cut me off from your life.
it's always the case isn't it? something goes wrong, and you keep it in yourself till you explode.
has it ever occurred to you that it might be so much easier if we just thrashed out whatever problems that crop out as soon as it occurs? that way, there wouldn't be a need to second-guess whatever you are thinking. you've probably realised by now that what Mr X perceives as a problem may not be what Mr Y perceives as a problem too. and its not fair that one is cut off from another's life just because of 2 different views of the same issue.

event coming up on 3rd nov :)
looking fwd!

i really hope things go well this time round.
i sound like a hallmark card saying this but,
you're all i want.
and that's not gonna change.
nobody has ever made me feel this way before.
and i'm glad you're the one.

don't ever ever ever let go of me.
i♥u

resignations.

there are 10 pairs of commando shorts beside my bed now.
or more specifically 9 beside my bed and 1 on my butt. lols
pretty comfy.

cindy's resigning.
kinda sad.. after all she's quite nice.
oh wells.

went with her to cartel and to drink at harry's after work.
talked quite a bit.
dunno when will see her again. though she says she will meet us next week for dinner or smth. oh wells.

a vision of students today

found this in my mailbox this morning from stanley.
it's really good.

liked the part where the students showed all the problems in our world today and said that though "these are not problems that I created, they are MY problems"
i think it's really food for thought and strikes a chord in all students today.

just to share :)

sleepyhead

trying to listen to a talk @ microsoft now.
sleepy though so i decided to blog before it's breakfast time.

talk's really technical. don't really understand half of what's going on.
it's cool though, with silverlight, ajax, expression and stuff.
but still, i'm very tempted to fall asleep.

luppy calibrated my screen for me! yay - no more dead zones :)

gonna be busy later - after the talk i havve a meeting with luppy for project elevate, then i have dinner plans with stan yizhe chunsiong cindy joseph and agnes, for project elevate too.
tmr's back to school and to my bluetooth module.
it's sending out stuff really really fast. which doesn't make sense :(
hope i can finish this week.

i hope break comes soon. you know you're really tired when u're blogging and you're nodding off at the same time.

i'm really tired of this.
it's getting nowhere.
and it wouldn't be that bad if it wasn't that i feel that it's just me feeling this way.
or maybe u just dont wanna say.
but i'm confused and my mind's in a whirl.
and it's obvious u want an answer out of me,
but i have none.

maybe it's better if there's a break,
coz everytime u talk to me, rationality goes out of the window.
and i know nothing is or will be solved.
kind of sucks when i dont even have the basic faith that everything will be okay.

trying to bury myself with the mundane things happening around me..
courses, coding, food, events
running away i suppose, at the back of my head.
it's what i do best, and it's one of the few things i know.

exhausted now - from courses, parents, cluttered mind and running away..
and you.
you, and all the possibilities of something and potential points of failure and everything else associated with it, are the most exhausting of all.

it's so nice to be happy

lying on my bed now waiting for my hair to dry

happy now :)
my walking stick module works! ahahaha
besides the fact that it's sending pseudo-nonsense to my computer.
managed to get the bluetooth to work properly(finally!)
pretty productive for a friday i guess, though didn't do much except copy the codes from what i coded 2 days ago and was not working line by line and a little help from mr tham who sat there and reminded me to set this pin and clear that pin so taht everything works properly

as of now, i only have to rewire a pin and add a switch thingy
told lay sze the other day that i won't be able to finish by this week. which really happened! hahaha. but i didn't expect myself to finish so fast too. oh well underpromise overdeliver. lols.

went off to bugis after school to try and get myself 70 bucks richer. worked :) basically its a survey thingy that i have to call in like everytime they sms me to answer a series of questions. i see my phone bill reaching crappy amounts pretty good money. companion didn't want to entertain me though. i must be getting really nonsensical. (right? haha)

which reminds me that i'm 170 bucks richer in total for this month. earned a hundred yesterday doing an interview on pads with weitin (thanks girl btw). went out with her afterwards for jap food. which was really nice. oh and i saw chickens that dont look like chickens at the patch of long grass near mcys. hahaha

met qihe later at night. who insists he's vegetarian but he was eating veg rice with fish cake and ikan bilis and curry (chicken) all over the rice -.- seriously lor. his doctor's orders though so his mom has been nagging at him all day and he just went along with it to make his life easier. haha. passed him his cd and accompanied him for dinner and blabber nonsense for the whole time. lols.

gonna sleep soon. work early morning tomorrow. church event which means i'm gonna end up babysitting kids again. yawnx

grey areas

perception is the way we look at things, interpret the information around us in our environment. It's directly linked to mindset - if a wife's mindset is that her husband is cheating on her, then whatever information she processes will be perceived as that her husband is cheating on her. It's that simple a concept. but it sure as hell complicates everything - coz it makes everything not black and white, but a sea of grey. the thief will always be a thief in the eyes of the law, but if a thief steals food to feed her own children, does it necessarily mean it's wrong?
things dont usually appear the way it is. one has to be self-concious and not afraid to see the inner truths within. denial - is where most of us are at any point of time. denial that we're in the wrong, denial that we are the ones who set off the chain of reactions that follow. we're all wrong at some point of time, that's for sure. and as a result, we may end up hurting the people we love, and mostly, ourselves. no man is an island afterall. and nothing is as complicated as life.


i think i run away too much.

dreamer

dreams get shattered. alot.
and you would think that we would learn it the hard way and stop dreaming at all.
but if we're human, we'll still dream.
again and again and again.

it never stops

when crappy me meets the dumb microp

feeling really crappy.
and i've got the sudden urge to eat suki sushi.
which is not good coz
a) i'm not supposed to go out as i'm at 9-6 fyp everyday
b) i'm broke
c) everything else seems to be tasteless nowadays.

trying to get my stupid microp to work now.
yesterday morning it kept jumping back to the interrupt at the end of the interrupt -.-
solved that after lunch when i realised i had to clear some interrupt register.
and in the afternoon, my input pin was giving me a floating point of 1.7V when it's supposed to give me a ground. =.=
solved that this morning when i replaced the 10K resistor with a 1K resistor. though i don't think i'm supposed to do that.
now. i realised my portA interrupt-on-change is totally screwed coz it is NOT interrupting.
which is so not good coz i don't know why. >.<

brother has a love affair with harry potter book 7. he's like bringing it everywhere. i'm not surprised if he sleeps with it. well at least he's not annoying me. his exams are coming so my mom's making him study every night.

back's a little better. mostly coz i'm sitting on a cushion seat with a really really protruding lower back portion which helps support it, and coz the only thing i've been doing recently once i reach home is lie on my tummy. still hurts every now and then though.

going out for lunch soon. now it's back to brain cracking over the non-interrupting interrupt which is so annoying me.

Don't wanna second guess
This is the bottom line
It's true
I gave my all for you
Now my heart's in two
And I can't find the other half
It's like I'm walking on broken glass
Better believe I bled
It's a call I'll never get