the problem with paradoxes

 

i'm back into the whole paradox theory.. stuff that is so simple and yet so complicated, explains everything and yet nothing.. like einstein's theory of relativity where a moving clock is slower that a stationary one when observed from a stationary point.

it's simply put, perception and yet its so against our conventional way of thinking..

argh. i'm killing braincells again. and its so stitch's fault.

 

sigh.

 

school's boring as usual. though i'm getting paid to be bored so that kind of is the silver lining in the thing.

so tired. i'm annoyed with my program again. going to camp in front of the computer tomorrow to solve the damn problem where i clear PORTA and its doesn't freaking clear. argh.

oh and did i tell you that i'm stuck with a PC that has NO internet and a roller ball mouse????

so tempted to smash it.. argh

 

tomorrow is supposed to be medical checkup day for NUS(like the 3rd checkup i'm having this year. i feel like i have some chronic disease or something) but due to some unforeseen circumstances of a certain time of the month i cant go. zzz. going to call them tomorrow.

 

it's surprising how things have a habit of turning out the way you didn't expect them to. its either that or i never learn from experience about guy friends.

 

he said he doesn't understand me. and its probably easier not to try to. he said that i stand out from the crowd - with the "what can you do to me" attitude i have. he said he doesn't know why he just appears whenever i call. and he said he doesn't know why he doesn't have to be someone else when he's with me.

what does that say?

too much and too little.

i think i need to keep my distance. but i always make the same mistake of not doing that.

a few important things to update/try

 

1. figure out my new HP ipaq :) thanks to daddy
   
2. eat the jade snow whatever marketing gimmick name mc flurry thing.. i tried it once.. nice - if you like matcha powder (you know the green tea powder some of the jap restaurants use? not the lame tea bag)
   
3. harrass Rex for masala tea from nepal :) cousins are so useful lol
   
4. study :(

randoming again

 

found this while facebooking :)

 

ITE trip today. why am i so high profile??

zzz

 

5 days and counting. i'm so going to die. haiz

the day is coming

graduation - check.

annoying graduation speech - check.

scholarship - check.

scholarship info sending - check.

scholarship medical check up - pending

Salary - pending

resignation from SCH and Esplanade - pending

NUS/NTU application acceptance - check

Accommodation application - check

 

well, most of my things are done.

kind of just waiting for the day to come.

it's on June 18th. Not sure whether i'm looking forward to it.

kind of like everyone's expectations are on me just because of what i am. oh well. this is one of the bad thing about being a high-flyer.

 

really in need of a break. Jo is going bangkok next week. I'm so jealous - ha. what i would give to spend one week just shopping till i run out of money in bangkok. and the thai massages.
but then again.. hmm. at this rate i'm going i think i might just settle for a weekend at some nice hotel slacking my whole day through.

but well, its not something i can afford to do now. the qualifying round is soon so theoretically i'm supposed to build up my "fire" to it and not take a long break in the middle of nowhere.

 

IDA says i cant work part-time. which makes sense. but is really really sucky. i'd love to hang around in esplanade. wanna feel the vibe there. its just so refreshing. but oh well.. i mean, i could just go ahead, and nobody would know the better.. but well, i guess its always better to play safe.. skali somebody throw a dagger at my back.

 

grad was okay. i mean, its fun and vibe-y and all that. but i attended 2 sessions back to back so the only thing i felt was that i was damn freaking exhausted. doesnt help that the grad gown was so heavy, and the shoulder pads were so BIG. then there were all the hand shakings and photos and frozen smiles. and the messed up speech... okay.. it didn't go THAT badly but i screwed up a word just as i was ending my speech. trust silly me to do that. then my dumb little bro was "snatching" satay with the principal. so smart of him.

then that's me in the grad book.. i look. weird. hahaha.

bro took alot of messed up photos at grad. everything was blur. was so hilarious. spent the whole day laughing at him. haha okay i'm so mean.

 

was really busy recently.. there was a week-long wake and so i was there every night i think about 2 weeks ago. (sorry time is like of no consequence recently. everything just passes so fast.) Then there's work at nyp, which is so mentally draining, and work at SCH, where your karma just gets really low they just like to scream right in your face about whatever they are unhappy about. had one incident the other day during the young children's concert. quite funny when i think back, coz there are like 9 staff attending to this patron. like WHOA. haha.

got really random and started taking photos of random stuff

this is my current msn pic. hahaa

my little nephew.

snack corner @ lab. its restocked every week :)

the nails i did for graduation. or rather the graduation gave me a perfect reason to do my nails. haha

 

yizhe being random @ board room yest. hahaa